Monday, August 15, 2005

don't worry... be happy


I'm Feeling: Like I don't want to be stressed out, but there is a lot going on...
Background Noise: On My Cross by FFH

Mark and I actually spent the weekend at home, which is rare. It was good to just kinda relax and sit around - we got to talk to our neighbors, watch a couple movies, make lunch for friends, and play "Name that random 80s TV show just by hearing a few bars of the theme song" with Hammer. Not bad at all.

My funny calendar says today is Relaxation Day... so I picked a picture of a waterfall, because those nature sounds CDs with running water always relax me - now I'm trying to get that feeling by looking at a picture, imagining the noise, and then thinking "if I was really hearing that, it would be soo relaxing." It's almost as effective. However, I'm just not thinking that today is going to be all that relaxing. Partly because it's Monday (Mondays are never relaxing, unless you have Mondays off from work, in which case they can be wonderfully relaxing... like Labor Day!) Also - we are starting up DIG (Deeper In God) for WYLdlife tonight - which is totally fun and exciting, but hanging out with 20+ middle schoolers is the opposite of relaxing. Hopefully it's enthusiastic, noisy, fun, and comfortable - but I don't usually walk away having more energy than when I started. Finally - school is getting dangerously close - means the students come back, want appointments, need overrides, don't have classes scheduled... AND I have to teach a class!

Here's my profound, thought-provoking question for today (something I've been wrestling with in my head for awhile now): What does it really look like to put your trust in God, specifically when you are struggling with needs that generally appear to require people to meet them? I understand praying, finding hope in His word... but what does it look like to actually lean on the Lord when you really need someone to lean on? For example, if I'm feeling lonely, and praying/reading the Bible don't seem to ease that feeling, is it because I'm doing it wrong (I don't really mean it/I'm missing some immutable point God is trying to make)? I guess I'm actually just looking for some insight on your experiences with this... when you need a hand to hold, and there are no people around... how do you really reach out and grab God's hand?

2 thoughts:

Anonymous said...

Often for me it helps to ask someone to pray for me and with me. My mother-in-law is great at that. She'll listen to my troubles and just bust out in prayer for me right then and there.

I wonder how it would be if I was that spontanious to pray for people on the spot...

Anonymous said...

opps... that was me, Julie :)