Tuesday, March 27, 2007

god is good

Why is it so easy to forget that God is good? When I survey the world around me with *open* eyes, I'm absolutely floored that it can ever leave my mind for a moment that my Lord is full of grace I cannot comprehend. Here are some things that have brought me to my knees lately...
1. I haven't been very good at concealing the fact that life has been a little rough on me lately. I know the blog has been vague, which leads to some people worrying... Mark told me last night that our friend D asked if "Katie was okay." I don't talk to D often (really ever - we pretty much just exchange birthday emails), but apparently she reads my blog enough to know something's been up. (I read her blog too, but she's had the same post up for months now... *ahem*) :)
I'm okay - I've deliberately been vague because, although blogs beg a sort of strange intimacy, there are some things I just didn't feel like posting on the internet.
2. I came to work yesterday to find an email from a friend I've known for nearly 7 years - we don't see each other a whole lot anymore, but we read each other's blogs, and keep up on life in general. She'd been thinking about me a lot lately, re-read some of my blog entries, thought it was clear that I was struggling through something, and (although she knew none of the details) sent me an email that so clearly spoke to what I was going through that God's great power and love gave me chills.
3. My hubs gets a daily devotional email (or two or three) and he shares them with me once in awhile. The past three or four ones he has shared have spoken so directly to me that I had to stop and collect myself a little. Today was yet another instance of that.
When I am at my loneliest, most vulnerable... He sends the most unexpected joys my way. How can I ever pretend that I am not wholly cared for? His power is made perfect in my weakness - and although I really detest being weak, He shines so clearly for me in those moments that I have to praise Him for those too.
I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.—Philippians 1:6

1 thoughts:

Julie said...

I'm so glad that God is God. Sometimes I wonder how people survive without him. Sure, we have a lot of resources to help us out, but having the hope of Jesus makes all the difference.