Tuesday, April 01, 2008

still around

It's been over a week since my last post, and there are a few reasons for that.
One is that it's hard to find time to type more than 3 sentences back to back... my darling daughter has a 6th sense for when I'm trying to get things done.
But the other (bigger) reason is that I can feel this blog changing. It is becoming a mama's blog. And I don't think that is a bad thing AT ALL - but it is new for me. Part of me doesn't want to become that person who can only think/talk about her kids. But truth be told - right now, Hazel is consuming. She and I are together pretty much 24/7, and my days are filled with her.
Filled with bathtimes. Diaper changes. Feeding. Burping. Laundry. Changing clothes (hers and mine both).
Part of me wants to apologize for the change. I know some of you may not find my "new" blog all that interesting.
The other part of me says "no apology is needed." This IS my life, and it is a gift from God. And I am thankful.
Things change. And my experience is that the toughtest changes, the ones that send us reeling... those are the ones that, when all is said and done, leave an impact I would never wish undone. So sure, sometimes I miss my job. Sometimes I miss my freedom. Sometimes I miss my paycheck. Sometimes I miss not feeling like the burpcloth is stapled to my shoulder.
But I cannot begin to fathom wishing away Hazel. And experiencing motherhood. Sharing parenthood with Mark. Watching people love my daughter. It's all so good.
So welcome. Welcome to my "new" blog.
(P.S. Please note that Hazel's arms are blurry in the second picture. Her changing pad is the happiest place ever for her (not because of the diaper changes, but because of the calendar on the wall above her head). We have no idea why, but she loves loves loves staring at that thing. And kicking her legs and wiggling her arms. I mean, who wouldn't enjoy that?)

3 thoughts:

Dana said...

i bet she enjoys looking at the calender because she is genetically linked to you and therefore appreciates it's organization and usefulness and relatedness to "being planned and prepared for things" - and stuff.

i dig the new blog. i hope i dig your new hair if you ever put up a picture.
:)

i miss you though! i bet hazel might love fowlerville farms. i mean who wouldn't. but i am coming to EL this friday (around 1:30, then staying for leadership). maybe we could figure out how to make hanging out happen?

Mary C said...

I love your blog, but then again, I'm a mom, so all things baby are fun for me to read!

Kaycee said...

I vote with the "no apology necessary". I love, love your blog no matter what you are talking about! But since I am about to be a Mama myself, I love the posts about Hazel best - so basically I am loving the new blog. :)